spider pig

yes, i'm trying my best to regain the life i so previously had before committing myself to him.

as long as i have funds, and someone's willing to treat me the transpo or even just to help me cope, game ako!!!

i just feel that as long as i have someone with me at the time, i won't think about him. i don't need him to be with me. yes, i just need someone ELSE to be with me - friends, or foes - as long as not him and as long as we won't talk about him. yes and maybe that'll help me de-attach myself from him. the one mistake that i made, really, was to allow myself to be attached to this person, who wasn't at all that hard to remove his attachment from me!!! haha shit.

anyway, i'm trying to enjoy my life, although things really aren't gonna be the way they were before. i thought i'd be happier with him. i thought i was doing the right thing (well, it's not really wrong, but the other would have been better) and something right's gonna show up, but we continued to go down the slope. anyway, i don't want to say any more because all i can think of are the things that disappoint me rather a lot about him. and i've mentioned the major ones on my previous post.

D2 is so great. i had fun with you guys. i'm sorry about the ms. bacbacan, it's really... let's forget about that also. anyway, august 20 ok? we're thinking pa where we're gonna go... and i hope i'll have enough savings for that! hehe

Linnae, we're gonna meet on tuesday ok? DM's gonna come from ateneo to upd and meet with gidget and the rest of the upd ppol, then we'll go nlng to upm. but i really hope na one time upd ppol nmn ang pupuntahan nio. it's quite hard kc n kme lng un gumagastos pra mkta kau, dpat kau rn gumastos pra mkta kme! haha whatever mykel. anyway ngaun kc wla pko pera so most likely nyan sa tuesday ay makiki-hitch nlng ako. i hope gelo's gonna come so he could fetch us nlng from his class tpos we'll go straight to upm. haha i miss gelo tlga. and i wanna hear what DM's gna say ngaung may license n c gelo at ndi xa tga ateneo. haha joke lng DM! i hope you won't go bitching the get-together.

anyway i'll dedicate tomorrow to reviewing for kas1 exams on monday. then monday afternoons for philo11 exams on tuesday. on wednesday and/or thursday, since there's no get-together nmn for lawrence, i'll review nlng for eng12...haha good luck, really.

and i think i changed my mind. i might not drop scrabble anymore. but i am really getting bored with all the usual stuff we do. it's like, i haven't learned anything yet, and i'm wasting two hours of my saturdays for this thing.

i really hope i'll still be able to retrieve what i have lost. i Love Jorge so much but i don't think we're getting anywhere near happiness. really, i'm tired of telling myself that we would get there soon. it's okay if there were some improvements, but there was none. also i always get the feeling that there's something i miss (as in hindi nalalaman). and i've said na nakaka-spot ako ng gnun. and it's disappointing coz i tell him everything i think about everything. but that's over na. i'm really tired, even of crying, even of feeling so miserable. he wouldn't understand me naman eh, so it's so useless. and besides he always thinks naman na siya yung inaapi or dehado or whatever. i wonder nga why we are still nearing our 17th month eh. i still don't know if i'll break up with him, coz i'm still hoping na may maisip akong way to save us... kasi i really can't easily let go of him... kahit pa galit ako sa kanya ngayon, i still love him... he's been everything to me...my only one...at ang masakit tlga was when he said na sumama na lang muna ko sa iba...after all the efforts i've exerted para matanggal yung attachment ko sa ibang tao, un ang sasabihin niya... sakit db?

anyway, i wna join the freshman math quiz. they've changed pala the theme. haha anyways i'll try my best kahit 5th lang, Php1000 din un eh. grabe pero my goal is the Php6000 na prize sa first placer. hahaha haaay...

God bless us all...

you're so disappointing, Jorge.



i Love starfishes. xD

and guys with glasses!!! whoooooooh!

nat walang laglagan ha.