..to be with you whenever I can. It's kind of stupid and really shallow but I just really do.
I want to gain back those times that I could have been the one who held your hand and your arms and heard those words.
It's childish, I know, but sometimes I feel that I lied to myself when I was fine and happy nd not because of you or anything related to you.
However, those times I cannot claim that I was unhappy. I know you would not claim that too. We were happy not because of each other, and I don't regret that. And we were happy for each other, too. And I felt that I could live with that. We really were being the best of friends. I could tell you anything again.
I..
I wish I could always make you smile and laugh, too..
I wish.. I hope.. This time..
