my plea

it's raining...




i don't hate the rain. in fact, i really love the rain. i don't get sick because of the rain, really, although some times before, my mother had said that the cause of my fever was because i went out on the rain. no, really, i get sick when i am so tired.

but i can't help feeling lonesome when it rains... it's just, the clouds aren't happy-looking... but still, i prefer rain rather than sunny days... RAIN, i say, not storms or floods... it's just, when it rains there's still light, right? and like, when it's sunny there's just sooo much heat... and i get so damn tired when it's hot, and especially when i'm hungry.

and it's just... soothing... to here raindrops hitting the roof... it's like the sky is singing for everyone to hear...

and i think it's near... i don't even know if i myself can take it...


you know, it doesn't mean that when you're the one breaking up, you're happy about it. you're happy about being free. i mean, cmon, how could you say that? not everyone who breaks up breaks up because he/she doesn't love the other anymore. it's stupid. i mean, like me, it's like, i want to think things over... haha it's been almost a year since i first made this attempt, and ever since it hasn't stopped...

at times i would promise that i won't ever break up again... but then, nothing's changed, really... it'd just be fine after the attempted break-up, for about, two-three weeks... then a quarrel would surface, and stupid attitudes (on both sides) would re-surface, and it's like... grr...

anyway, it's that. i'm not breaking up with you because i don't love you anymore. i never stop loving anyone whenever i started loving them. haha but, i mean, you'll always be on top. i mean, next to God, that is... even if it is 'Z' which is the first letter of the alphabet, or if day was actually night, i don't think i would love someone else more than i Love you...

and i really hope that you really wouldn't love somebody else... you know... i just need (i don't want) to be alone for a while. and i think you too, you need to be alone... let's think all of this over... please?

i Love you...
and i miss you... but you said sobra nmn ako kung mangulila... so i'll try not to miss you while we're away, db? pra ndi nko sobra mangulila pg mgkhiwalay tayo... hehe galing m kc ndi k n gnun...

galing mo kasi...