Year-End Special

Well, I just wanna try to remember what happened. :)

January

Sandamakmak na cases! And then midterms.

February

Nothing much, I guess. Applying for O&B pala! I was really into it. But I forgot about the interview. I wasn't able to set an appointment. :( Sir Andrew called me about it. While talking to him I felt like it was really no use, I can't make it on time. When I got home I got an email from PLDT. :)

March

I think this was the time of PLDT Student Camp Launch. Then the finals, and the relief from everything! Wooh!

April

Internship!!! Got to meet many people. Experienced so many things. Got my hair "relaxed" and it was really short. Met with Vanir and went window shopping in Glorietta.

May

End of internship. Aww. Before that, watched Iron Man 2 twice! With Inna, and then with Jorge.

June

Start of another year. :) Watched a lot of movies and felt love in the air. Honestly, I thought everything was just getting better after a very long wait.

July

Well, things just keep getting better. Since I was an applicant for ABAM - trans - I got to get close with many people! :) Found new friends and a few people whom I added to "I really can't get your attitude" list.

August

Oh, all those deliverables! :)) And the love.

I guess I wanna end there =))

The Sixth Day

Everything was perfect, until God made man. Then the world was whole.


Since I was a child I have always wondered why I exist.
What do other people feel?
If we are happy, do we ever feel the same kind of happiness?
What are they thinking?
Am I alone?
Are they real?
What will happen if I die?
What will happen to all my thoughts and memories?


Even then, a believer of the supernatural and such (I feared them, too), I knew that ghosts don't have brains that store memories. No, they don't even have a heart. Even if materialists find out that ghosts are indeed made up of matter, that would not mean they already have the cells that store and retain memories from being human.

Then it came to me - the brain is not the only thing that stores memories. In fact, it might just be serving as the RAM of our bodies. Nah, what a comparison. But yeah, something like that. I believe that our spirit - immaterial as it can be - carries memories, too. Not just simple memories of days and occasions, but of all we have experienced and learned in life. It carries a much valuable kind of memory.

Now why did God let that be?

I guess because, as God is the most Holy Spirit, and He made us in His image, then He breathed in us our spirit. Each and everyone of us. And that's what makes us special among all His creations.

Remember that before He made us, He already made all other things - the light after dark, the sky and the sea, the trees, the birds - everything we would need to live. And if you may have noticed, they are all just perfect! The way they live, even without the capacity of our brain - they have the basic instincts, and they live harmoniously, not only with their fellow species but with the whole world! But us? I think we are the most imperfect creation, but we are the most beautiful.

Why did God let that be - us, imperfect?

Because He meant us to be with Him. We just borrowed His breath - this life - and then He wants us to be with Him. Just as C.S. Lewis explicitly said in The Screwtape Letters, it is hard to understand why God would make us humans, give us Free Will, when He wants us to worship Him at all times. Well, that's another story.

As of now, let's just be happy and thankful we are existing. I don't want to say we own the world - all of us are but part of it. But we should be happy.

Let's Please Change

Michaelle, let us please be happier.

We have to radiate more good vibes.


If we can't eliminate all the bad vibes, at least bawasan man lang natin. Please?


(Gusto ko yung "we" talaga yung gamit ko na para bang ang dami ko.)